HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DADDY.STAY HEALTHY AND HAPPY 4ever . one hour ago it was still my daddy bday . we celebrated at the bottle tree park. its a very happy day.:) but still my cousins starts to talk about me,my condition since that faint.all of them urges me to go for scanning.i said i dun want. and they started telling me the concequences. one of them tells me that i should be telling him why i dun want to go for scanning,then said that he will definately keep secret for me,becauce he is not the same as me whatevre he promises me , he will do it.not like me nver keeps my promises.it lead me to think of my friends.they used to be the ones i can also share my woes and worries. but i dun think i can still do it again.maybe i should be blamed too.no matter wad, they are always the best friends in hkss.for this week,many things happened,my mind is feeling very confused. im not going well with my step family.
i really want to share these with someone but i still think that the only person i should thrust in this earth is myself,i dun noe if i got this thought because i watched too much tv or its because of the things that happened to me.i am very scared and sad. i realy have to give up my friends and go for checkup. but the people around me still dun noe that i do have problems which im afraid of , but never mind froget it. oh ya tody when i was at near the lake or pond or whatever,i felt very relaxed,listening to the rythem of water. also i have read about the legend of purple roses i also know with 1000 each with a wish i can protect my loved ones even by giving to people who i care for. this legend have been twriling around me for days. i feel of thrusting this legend.because im tired of everything already. im really tired, but i still believe that because life is already destined, i should spend the best of my day daily, one trick is to smile.
so im gonna make a pledge.
the past me will vanish from the world.but the new me who will be the brave and always smiling one.i should bring happiness to the people around me not unhappiness. i will want to believe in purple rose. i want to start all over again, in order to do these, i haveto forget the past, start all over. my used-to-be besties thank u for giving me a wonderful birthday this year, but i need to decide i will decide to part with u all,in order to make all of us happier in future. but still, thanku for letting me noe wad is real friends are for.i will treasure my all friends 4ever. THANK YOU ALL:)
FOR EVERYONE WHO KNOWS ME, IM GONNA START AFRESH FROM NOW, THE 5TH APRIL,12:20 AM.........WOO HOO
im tired already,in the sense that sleepy la, nights to all.:)